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SUMMER STARTS TO SHINE

PERFECTING THE ART OF CHANGING MY POST- TRAUMATIC SHIT INTO SPARKLE & SUNSHINE

UNICORN sparkle *

I'm high. I'm low. I'm fast. I'm slow. I soar, then I'm grounded and stuck fast. Free as a bird, until the cage door clinks shut. Sociable butterfly meets reclusive hermit. Introvert who can extrovert like the best of em on... Continue Reading →

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HOME AT SEA

What to write today? Well, this is my blog offering of the day....it's a post about where I live, because I don't write about my natural habitat that much. Quite why I don't I'm not fully sure of, though thinking about it,... Continue Reading →

SENSITIVE BLOGASM

I'm not good at everything, but what I'm good at, I'm properly good at. One thing I am absolutely bloody BRILLIANT at, is being very VERY sensitive! I have sensitivity fucking N.A.I.L.E.D......OH YEAH! "You own it girlfriend" hollered in my best... Continue Reading →

COMFORT WHEN DISTURBED

One of the biggest insults that can be colloquially hurled at someone in conversation; sometimes as a unfunny joke, and sometimes with rancid bitterness is, "you're psychologically disturbed!"- usually meaning broadly that you are 'crazy', 'off your rocker', 'unbalanced', 'abnormal', 'socially bonkers',... Continue Reading →

EYES ON ME

Message from a friend sent just now... "I wish for you to see yourself thru my eyes, so you can see you are beautiful and your energy brilliant." After thanking her and feeling touched and uplifted and boosted, I replied  that... Continue Reading →

FOREVER FRIENDS?

Phewzers (Wow and Phew and zers combined). I'm finally feeling okay again :) Today has been a GOOD day. It started off with a tinge of mood wobbliness, but the day has gone from strength to strength and I have... Continue Reading →

BACKFLIP

BACKFLIPS are the thing of talent show dance troopes....the visual motions that make the crowd get excited. When applied to mental health recovery, backflips are what I like to call what other people term 'relapse episodes', to make them seem... Continue Reading →

BOUYANCY

I'm satisfied that I'm figuring all this out and I know what my next steps are.  I'm satisfied that I'm getting closer to truth and spotting bullshittery, half truths, and destructive arseholery sooner.  I'm satisfied that I know what the best... Continue Reading →

THERAPY BEAST

It's therapy day today. I wonder what emotional chaos will ensue today. I just read a brilliant blog post about someone else's experience of therapy, and wished a. I could write like that, and b. that I understood therapy better.... Continue Reading →

WATER ON CHALK

Gymnasts can't do those amazing things they do on the bars without chalk on their hands. Their hands will slip. They will lose their grip. They may even fall to the ground and do themselves an injury. Gymnasts are not... Continue Reading →

HER, HIM and YOU

Why am I in this place? Is is really only because of her and her and her him and him and him, and you? Each her or him represents a person who I am hurting from emotionally in response to... Continue Reading →

CHANGE

I've changed my blog design. AGAIN. That is something I am very capable and very able to change. It is a change I enjoy making and it is something I find gratifying, as it challenges me creatively and allows me... Continue Reading →

BLUE TO PINK CHARITY HIKE

THIS IS A LITTLE DIFFERENT TO MY USUAL POSTS, IN THAT I AM ASKING YOU TO PLEASE REBLOG OR SHARE THIS ON YOUR OWN FACEBOOK/TWITTER/BLOG PAGES IN ORDER TO SPREAD AWARENESS ABOUT THE MENTAL HEALTH BOOSTING/CHARITY FUNDRAISING EVENT I AM PLANNING FOR SEPTEMBER THIS YEAR... Continue Reading →

MEANDER TO NARNIA 

A brief meander through my thoughts....... Heavy fur coats in a wooden wardrobe part left, right and above, and I'm met with the chilly air of Narnia inhaled up my shocked nostrils. I need mind clearing via writing.  The run today... Continue Reading →

SMASH

I smashed it today on my 10k mental health charity run for Tyneside and Northumberland Mind 🙌 A new personal best of 1 hr and 3 minutes! I pushed myself to my absolute physical limits and I couldn't be prouder!... Continue Reading →

MORNING REVELATION 

... she concluded that yeah, sure, she might have a difficult life with near relentless unhappiness, BUT, not everyone is fortunate enough to wake up to the sight of a fully feathered life size flamingo on their bedroom side table to... Continue Reading →

PRE-BEDTIME THOUGHTS

SummerSHINES 

HARM MYSELF. STAY ALIVE.

Life is considerably better when you're not obsessed with desires to not be alive anymore. That is the change yesterday brought about. For the first time in 7 days I didn't have an intense desire to no longer exist, with... Continue Reading →

DROWSY

Tw**** I'm drowsy today and that's a good thing. Today is the first time in 7 days I've felt remotely relaxed. It took some chemicals to do that granted, but so what. I cut too...just superficially, enough to see neat... Continue Reading →

ANYWHERE BUT HERE

I've numbed myself with a couple of benzos and a few prescription painkillers after the school run. I'm in bed. I don't want to speak to anyone. I feel happily drowsy. I'm quite happy to be partially out of it.... Continue Reading →

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