I'm a writer, but lately I haven't had time to write crumples in defeat I LOVE my writing, but lately my writing has had to be transferred over to the new social media platforms I'm trying to build on Instagram and Facebook. I'm in a time of transition. I am not just summerSHINES the mental … Continue reading PLEASE FOLLOW ME
BOOM The bloom after the gloom 😊😎🌻 summerSHINES
Right now, things couldn't be much more pants..... summerSHINES
I'm experimenting, with a change in text colour. Today I fancy PINK. Why? Because it's International Women's Day? (Urr...maybe). Because I am easily bored with blogging in my usual way? Yep, it's more that....but I think I am feeling to need for a rebrand, and I mean a TOTAL REBRAND. The thing about having the … Continue reading THE SHIFT TO PINK
Inspiration always seems to come from unexpected places, doesn't it. The inspiration for what I am doing right NOW came about to me about five distant years ago. Though I didn't know or predict how the future would precisely pan out, I came upon something that left an immediate and deep personal imprint on me. … Continue reading OK TO SHINE
I am bone crushingly alone. I cannot bear people telling me I'm not, when I know I am. I feel alone with every inch of my being. Rationality and mental illness often conflict. The person with psychosis believes they are the son of Christ, or the devil, so people telling them they are not is … Continue reading ALONE
When I was a little girl, I'd often bake with my Mum. Despite the family set-up being fairly messed up, I still did nice mum and daughter-ish things like baking fairy cakes together and such; and do you know, my fave thing about baking was the way my mum would expertly scrape around the inner … Continue reading SPATULA
I am here...but I am not satisfied with here because I want to be over there. I want to be in the future; not the present. I want to have already made this important transition that I'm about to make and be contentedly settling into my new life with it's new lifestyle, but alas, I'm … Continue reading NOT THERE, STILL HERE *sigh*
Here are some scribbly posts I did yesterday about life with PTSD. Life with this illness is gruelling and yesterday was a particularly bad day, so my doodles were more factual and negative than entertaining. I just needed to get it all down on paper...a true reflection of thing; how much of a MASSIVE effect … Continue reading PTSD SAYS YES? OR NO.
Live in the moment, say the Buddhists. Live in the moment, say the mindfulness enthusiasts. Live in the moment, say the mental health professional peeps. HAVE A HOT BATH WITH RAINFOREST/WHALE MUSIC PLAYING. WATCH THE STEAMY VAPOUR PERMEATE OFF THE TOP SURFACE OF YOUR WARM BEVERAGE. SIT BY THE SEA AND TAKE IN DEEP LUNGFULS … Continue reading MOVEMENT, N.O.T MINDFULNESS.
**Trigger warning- discussion of suicidality and self-harm. I don't know if I can attempt any clever writing tonight, as I'm extremely weary, extremely low, and extremely empty. But I feel the building urge to write, so I guess there must be trapped stuff that I need to release from the jar containing the essence of … Continue reading ME- 1, URGES-NIL
As usual lately I have minimal words to offer, so the doodles will have to tell my therapy story for this week What a corker of a sesh 😱😱 summerSHINES
Just some stream of consciousness doodles after an absolutely S**T day.... summerSHINES
What if it's forever? What if my prediction is clever? What if healing is mainly never? Never f*****g ever Once upon a time Girl dreamed that she'd be fine Is our best healer really 'time'? Weary from this slow and painful climb Start another verse Body lays cold in hearse Blood once warm now cold … Continue reading POEM- CORKSCREW *tw
Just offloading. Moments like that never get easy, no matter how much I get used to experiencing them 😔 xx summerSHINES