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SUMMER STARTS TO SHINE

WRITER. DOODLER. TRAUMA SURVIVOR. INFLUENCER. WAVE-MAKER.

SOUL BE YOUR PILOT

Who knows what invalidation means? This isn't a SAT test. I am just not sure how aware people are of the term invalidation and what implication it has in relationships and potential conflict scenarios. The dictionary definition of invalidation is... Continue Reading →

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SMILEY SADNESS

The truest sentence that I know, is that a smile can conceal great sadness. Speaking from my own experience, I don't only cry when I'm sad and only smile when I'm happy. It just isn't that simple. I have perfected the art... Continue Reading →

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LIVING, WRITING, FEARING   

Apprehension is something we all feel from time to time and is completely natural and human. Usually though we are only apprehensive about stuff that really matters to us. Things that we're not bothered about we don't tend to feel apprehension... Continue Reading →

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LONELINESS: THE QUIETEST EXPOSION

Loneliness is the quietest explosion you'll ever [not] hear It explodes peacefully in never-ending waves; breaking against the shoreline of our hearts There is no sound of exploding on the outside The sound is all on the inside We are alone and... Continue Reading →

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UNICORN sparkle *

I'm high. I'm low. I'm fast. I'm slow. I soar, then I'm grounded and stuck fast. Free as a bird, until the cage door clinks shut. Sociable butterfly meets reclusive hermit. Introvert who can extrovert like the best of them on red... Continue Reading →

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COMFORT WHEN DISTURBED

One of the biggest insults that can be colloquially hurled at someone in conversation; sometimes as a unfunny joke, and sometimes with rancid bitterness is, "you're psychologically disturbed!"- usually meaning broadly that you are 'crazy', 'off your rocker', 'unbalanced', 'abnormal', 'socially bonkers',... Continue Reading →

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EYES ON ME

Message from a friend sent just now... "I wish for you to see yourself thru my eyes, so you can see you are beautiful and your energy brilliant." After thanking her and feeling touched and uplifted and boosted, I replied that I'd... Continue Reading →

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WATER ON CHALK

Gymnasts can't do those amazing things they do on the bars without chalk on their hands. Their hands will slip. They will lose their grip. They may even fall to the ground and do themselves an injury. Gymnasts are not... Continue Reading →

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INVISIBILITY VISIBLE

I am invisibility visible. I am that person. That person of unapologetic black and white extremes. I dug deep and found potential. I saw it, I identified it, and I shouted about it in a very loud voice. People heard. I... Continue Reading →

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A FAMILY LOST

This is a message to my real-life ex family. " I know you will find my summerSHINES blog eventually, assuming you haven't already... You may have found my page via the mental health selfie/blog posts I wrote for Mind...And as I embrace more... Continue Reading →

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COFFIN OF DOOM ;)

And there you have it..... My summerSHINES analysis of most therapeutic exchanges I have with my psychologist lady! I actually enjoy therapy, as well as at times despising every second. Nobody wants to be in the spotlight really where therapy... Continue Reading →

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#IF DEPRESSION WERE A CHOICE

  If depression were a choice, I wouldn't be up at 5.21am posting due to depression-related insomnia. If depression were a choice, when I'd have first tasted depression at the age of sixteen I'd have realised "depression wasn't for me", and I... Continue Reading →

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MEMORY LANE

I walked first in sun...but by the end of the walk, the grey clouds had amassed and blown in as though heading purposefully to me and brought with them sheets of horizontal rain. I am snug, warm and dry now back... Continue Reading →

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I WISH YOU COULD…

I wish you could be exactly the person I wanted. I wish you could be here right now. I wish you could comb your fingers gently through my hair, and tease out the tangled mess in my brain and heart... Continue Reading →

RIGHT TO REPLY

I decided to write this post for a number of reasons. This past week has been horrendously difficult, upsetting, psychologically threatening and downright overwhelmingly frightening and unsafe in places. This post is my attempt to sum it all up. It's a really... Continue Reading →

A RIGHT BOBBY DAZZLER *TW

TW- Post openly discusses themes of suicidality and self-harm. Only read if you feel appropriately strong to manage your feelings about this. For the benefit of my international followers- in England we say "a right bobby dazzler" when something has... Continue Reading →

WELLNESS BECOMES ILLNESS *TW

*Trigger warning- Post contains suicidal themes. I got sidetracked from my original plan of taking the summer off blogging. The lure of blogging called me back. But sometimes you just have to accept you've gone off track in quite a big... Continue Reading →

POST-CRISIS GRATEFUL

Whenever things build up to crisis point, people become all important. The power is, I suppose, all in the people. A person or people can often be all it takes to push you to crisis point in the first place,... Continue Reading →

BRAND NEW DAY POEM

You'll find me in my wishing well, once upon a dream Voicing anthems of survivors till my tears dry clean Never will I stop defending those like me No matter how tough it is to urge the blind to wake... Continue Reading →

THANK YOU!

This is my chance to big up my readers, yes YOU -the people who read Summer Starts to Shine. I am dead proud to have just nudged over the 800 follower mark. blinks I find this hard to believe actually. Next month I will... Continue Reading →

REALISTIC INBETWEEN

Writing is a way of talking, uninterrupted. The irony is, I typed out those words, then immediately got interrupted LOL! [It was my kids arriving back from swimming with their Grandma] But six HOURS later I'm back, and I'm 'on it'-finally writing... Continue Reading →

THE PULL *tw

TW* Post written about mental health crisis, with brief references to childhood sexual abuse, suicidality and self-harm. Read with caution if you have personal experience as this may be triggering. The pull excites me-the pull draws me close to the ledge-the pull is what... Continue Reading →

SHARPIE SHINE MANIFESTO

This is a two parter- The first half is a scribbly description of how I felt earlier on this morning. Part 2 is what I came up with in response to how I was feeling: My summerSHINES Shine Manifesto. I... Continue Reading →

PERMISSION TO FREAK OUT!

I caught myself longing earlier for a therapy sesh and counting the days till the next one (which turned out to be 7 days). 'Why', I wondered.....'why do I want my therapy to come around and be happening sooner than... Continue Reading →

POST-LONDON SHARPIE RELEASE

I couldn't write my feelings, so I scribbled them out in sharpie instead... 😔 Post-publishing note* I was not intending to break my blog holiday rule, but these sharpies had to be published for my sanity! I'm going to London... Continue Reading →

‘HAPPY HOLIDAY’ BLOG BREAK

Here's a summerSHINES announcement in poetic prose I'm taking a break for a well-deserved doze This blog will have to wait as this mum has demands I only have two eyes, two legs, and one pair of multi-task hands The... Continue Reading →

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