If depression were a choice, I wouldn’t be up at 5.21am posting due to depression-related insomnia.

If depression were a choice, when I’d have first tasted depression at the age of sixteen, I’d have realised “depression wasn’t for me” and I would have refused to accept this hellish intrusion into my life any more.

If depression were a choice, believe me, I’d have OPTED OUT years ago.

If depression were a choice, I would never have got to the suicide attempt stage, as I would have got in-chosen my depression well before suicidal ideation, plans, and attempts ever materialised.

If depression were a choice, I would have had no need for those three stays on the acute locked psychiatric ward, kept away from my husband and children, under observation 24-7.

If depression were a choice, I’d have no need for the anti-depressants, mood stabilisers, antipsychotics and benzodiazepines I’ve taken to keep me alive and functioning these last few years.

If depression were a choice, I’d un-choose it. Every time it hits. Without fail. And not only that- it’d be EAEZEE!

If depression were a choice, I’d have to do a lot less supporting of my close network of friends, as we’d all choose to live a life of contentment. After all, who wouldn’t choose to be happier?

If depression were a choice, a painful and scary death by suicide would NEVER need to happen to anyone.

If depression were a choice, no person would ever be bereaved by suicide….the wound that never goes away.

Have you ever tried to kill yourself? I have. If only I’d have realised depression was a choice though, I could have skipped all that! Silly me sarcastic eye roll

If depression were a choice, a lot of GPs, psychiatrists, psychologists, art therapists, occupational therapists, psychiatric nurses, support workers, counsellors and psychotherapists and pharmaceutical experts would be out of a job.

If depression were a choice, mental health charities would have a far simpler job, as there would not be any efforts required to raise awareness and reduce societal stigma, they would just need to adjust their posters, websites, social media posts and promotional literature to include the simple message CHOOSE NOT TO BE DEPRESSED- JOB DONE!

In a modern enlightened society, I can’t believe I only just heard the wisdom that depression is a choice. I so wish I’d have been told that sooner-it would have saved a whole lotta heartache!

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IF ONLY I’d have known it was my choice…. What a difference it could have made to the last NINETEEN years [!]



I have titled this post #If depression were a choice and am hoping you want you to try your own version of this post. If depression were a choice, how in your mind might life be different?

I can’t wait to see what you come up with 🙂

The more people who join in this ANTI-STIGMA series of posts across WordPress, the more the anti-stigma message will infiltrate out across the world. Bloggers can do a great deal in terms of shifting attitudes, that is if like-minded people like us blog in unison.

LET’S MAKE SOME NOISE PEOPLE!!!! If you want to, you can link your post back to this one 🙂



PS. This post was inspired (?!) by a thoughtless blogger who left a comment ON THIS MENTAL HEALTH BLOG- WRITTEN BY A BLOGGER WHO SUFFERS WITH TWO DIAGNOSED MENTAL HEALTH CONDITIONS that I should “CHOOSE not to be depressed”.

If only it were that simple 😦

I’ll leave you with my (very amateurish but well-intentioned) anti-stigma videos….enjoy  Xxx

SummerSHINES ©




    • summerstartstoshine says:

      Hello 🙋 My anti stigma mission has only just begun in response to some insensitive blog comments. I wrote a couple of posts, ‘every blogger hurts’ and ’till it happens to you’ and now this #if depression were a choice one which was an idea I came up with in the middle of the night. Today I’ll be publishing my anti-stigma video which is almost finished. Watch out for that. If you wanna participate in writing your own post please join in. Someone else has already 😊 The more people who do this the more anti stigma noise we can make 🙌❤ I hope this helps.

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