[If] you got a friend in me, you gotta friend with BPD....BPD meaning 'Borderline Personality Disorder' (or 'Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder' as it is sometimes affectionately (?!) known)... I prefer to call it borderline fabulous disorder, but don't usually as it is both slightly narcissistic sounding and also largely inaccurate, as most of the time I don't … Continue reading FRIEND OF BPD



Hello! I finally get to do my write-up of yesterday. WOWZER. I'm absolutely thrilled at my virgin experience of being interviewed for the telly. It went like an absolute dream and I'm still feeling super shiny and luminescent this morning....basking in 'dreams coming true-ness'. I'm trying to blog authentically here without caring how I sound, despite the fact there's … Continue reading WARM GLOW GUSHING


PLEASE RE-POST THIS....I WANT IT SHARED AS WIDELY AS POSSIBLE. (ESPECIALLY IF YOU LIVE IN THE NORTH-EAST OF ENGLAND.) Here is my actual Facebook post which I want people to share... PLEASE LIKE AND SHARE THORUGHOUT THE NORTH-EAST AND BEYOND XXX People of the North-East. Please help me track down my 'angel of the north' … Continue reading PANIC ATTACK!


I was planning a duvet day today after waking up decidedly feeling lack lustre, to a backdrop of un-seasonally wintry weather outside my bedroom window. But I got the miserable wet and arctic windy dog walk out of the way early, and now I'm cosy and warm, in my favourite spot in the house, clickety clacking … Continue reading MAN OVERBOARD


Have you ever let doubt stand in our way? I used to be like this and let the doubt monster take over the reins of my personal destiny. Not any more. My faith has been tested lately-shaken and stirred. If you poke a stick into a puddle ripples will be visible. The rings of ripples will … Continue reading DOUBT


I feel proud to be a British citizen right now...for the simple reason that lately there has been an explosion of MENTAL HEALTHNESS all over the UK media. Everyday there is a mental health story in the top headlines, and rightly so.... As pointed out by the royals..."mental health underpins EVERYTHING" Last night was TV … Continue reading MIGHTY BLIGHTY


Today is a big day... It maybe deserves a fanfare? Or is that just in my dreams?! I have NOT popped 100mg of Pregabalin today DUN DUN DUHHHHH Pregabalin is a pharmacological treatment [aka a pill] that is used the treatment of generalised anxiety. I used to take 700mg a day at my peak, then I reduced … Continue reading PROGRESS


Perhaps you are reading this blog because you are familiar with/ have personal experience of mental health problems of some description. You may well not have a Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder diagnosis though. Regardless of whether you have PTSD or not, if you follow a PTSD blog you will read the word "trigger" in PTSD blogs a great deal. … Continue reading T.R.I.G.G.E.R.E.D


I am in a cheesy S Club 7 mood...hence the motivational cheerleading doodle I just did...;).... Guess what I did today!... Yep that...😜 Fair enough. It was un-British. Hands up. Guilty as charged. But when things matter to you, you gotta adopt some badassery I reckon and self-promote to people who you believe want the … Continue reading I REACH


At last.....freedom to type...freedom to let the words topple out of my head and onto this blank page. This blog represents a type of escape for me....this is the place where I make sense of my inner environment and all it's turmoil. Peace. Breathe. Calm. I am having serious thoughts about my future currently. I am … Continue reading ALL ME


Mr pricklepants is a toy hedgehog in Toy Story 3. Prickle pants is my title today as 'emotionally prickled' is how I currently feel. I feel like some kind of a social I've encountered a lot of conversational prickliness today which has made me feel sore. Today has been socially difficult...some days are aren't they...because sometimes … Continue reading PRICKLE PANTS


Today a round-up join the dots post is in order...a kind of "where summer's at right now" post.  This is been building for a while. Lately my posts have usually been centred around an idea, quite small and quite specific...this is more a bigger picture type post, as the bigger picture is where my attention is … Continue reading DOT TO DOT