Here's a summerSHINES announcement in poetic prose I'm taking a break for a well-deserved doze This blog will have to wait as this mum has demands I only have two eyes, two legs, and one pair of multi-task hands The kiddies need me for six summer weeks They need my love and some well-earned pick … Continue reading ‘HAPPY HOLIDAY’ BLOG BREAK
Am I mad? And what is madness anyway? How do you define yourself? Do you fit into the category of 'mad'? What does madness mean to you? Does that determine whether or not you are mad? 'Mad' is a word that is has strong connotations and will be interpreted in differing ways dependent on who you are, how … Continue reading WHAT IS MAD & AM I IT?
I woke this morning heavy hearted, and I've already idled away some unknown mindless length of time pondering why it is I feel so crap today. I think I've finally now worked it out. I'm not sure if I'm ill or well (mentally/psychologically) and I'm trying to work out which of the two things I … Continue reading SHADES OF ILL
If you have a PTSD diagnosis as I have- one thing you'll be intimately familiar with is the whole concept of triggers. Triggers are what turn you in an instant from 'ok', to PTSD'ed up to the max. PTSD is not a constant illness. I have phases of normality and phases of PTSD flare ups. … Continue reading TRIGGER (UN)-HAPPY
Has anyone seen real life? I think I must have mislaid it down the back of the sofa or something, because I can't for the life of me locate real life. Real life has become unreal chaos. I am busy. Not at all centred. Floaty. Overwhelmed. Confused. I haven't been normal since Wednesday, or maybe, if … Continue reading REAL LIFE?
Blogging has taken a back seat this week, and in many ways, so have I. What I am trying to do is relentlessly carve out a pathway forward and stride on with purpose and conviction. I imagine myself as a sassy volunteer princess beating my way though the thickets desperate to catch a glimpse of the fairytale … Continue reading SLEEPY ON MARGARITA
I write this post with my feet still hovering several inches off the ground. [That isn't because I'm sitting typing this post while perched on an unusually tall chair] ;) .......It's actually because I'm still really happy and buzzy and nicely floaty after a couple of stimulating full-on but FABULOUS days. I don't have the mental capacity to … Continue reading THE GOLDEN GLOW
Trauma 'has me' in its grip today. Ironic as yesterday when I published my 'post-traumatic sparkle syndrome (PTSS) post, I said I'd need to keep it in plain sight for my low days. Today is a bit low, not catastrophically low. I'm just out of balance and below par. Soon I travel down to Westminster … Continue reading EXCITED/SCARED
Everyone has heard of PTSD. But not everyone had heard of PTSS (most probably because I literally just made it up!). On my email signature I describe myself as a 'mental health blogger of post-traumatic sparkle' @summerstartstoshine etc, and ''PTSS' is the new phenomenon that I totally just made up, which is essentially a fancier and sparklier way … Continue reading Post-Traumatic SPARKLE
Apprehension is something we all feel from time to time and is completely natural and human. Usually though we are only apprehensive about stuff that really matters to us. Things that we're not bothered about we don't tend to feel apprehension about. Instead we feel the murkiness and greyness of nothing; indifference basically. Nothing that is … Continue reading LIVING, WRITING, FEARING
I have put off writing this blog post. It isn't really like me to procrastinate over anything actually so it is always strange when this type of situation arises. If I avoid writing about something it can be for a variety of reasons....sometimes it's because the topic is plain painful, sometimes it's that I'm too ashamed … Continue reading IS A CAREER POSSIBLE IF I BLOG?
I have two choices with this blog. I either delete the whole thing, or I push on. I contemplated deleting my whole blog earlier. I honestly did. I have done quite a few times lately actually. Why? Because blogging is exposing. I also considered entering this blog for an award, but I just felt too … Continue reading EMBARRASSING IS OK
Loneliness is the quietest explosion you'll ever [not] hear It explodes peacefully in never-ending waves; breaking against the shoreline of our hearts There is no sound of exploding on the outside The sound is all on the inside We are alone and at one with that sound The hurt sits concealed and contained under our sagging skin No one … Continue reading LONELINESS: THE QUIETEST EXPOSION
I'm feeling proud today, and totes emotes. I think today is ripe for a mental health blogger's review, as it is already over half way through this year and I wanted to have a review of where I'm up to in relation to the goals I set myself. This year my goals were real ones, … Continue reading 2017 YEAR OF SHINE. PROGRESS UPDATE
This is a post about the correlation of mood and bra wearage [based on extensive contemplation lasting literally MINUTES). My bra is my barometer. It is my mood BRA-ometer, if you like ;) I can tell a lot about my mental state by my underwear choice. I will keep the pants out of this post … Continue reading BRA/MOOD CORRELATIONS