My creative inspiration (blogging-wise has dried up). Creativity is not a predictable resource. While some manage to max out creativity and produce creative output prolifically, almost as one of their personality traits, sometimes the well just dries up, the brain cells cease to fire, and the creativity shrivels like a air dried prune [with extra wrinkles]. … Continue reading GOODBYE TO ALL, ESP. YOU x
I appear to have lost my writing mojo a bit lately...at least on the blogosphere. I am writing plenty, but it's for real-life, non-cyber stuff. My volunteering life behind the scenes is BUSY, and for that I am very grateful at this moment, as it is successfully keeping my post-traumatised feet planted securely in the present. I type this … Continue reading DINNER PARTY OF ME
At last. A happy blog topic!! party poppers This post is a lot more about footwear than mental health, although don't worry, this blog hasn't morphed into a vacuous fashionista blog- the mental health link is still very much there. For a welcome change, this post empathises some of the good stuff only good stuff that mental illness … Continue reading PEACEFUL SOLE
I wish you could be exactly the person I wanted. I wish you could be here right now. I wish you could comb your fingers gently through my hair, and tease out the tangled mess in my brain and heart too whilst you're at it. I wish you could be here beside me, but not … Continue reading I WISH YOU COULD…
Who knows what invalidation means? This isn't a SAT test. I am just not sure how aware people are of the term invalidation and what implication it has in relationships and potential conflict scenarios. The dictionary definition of invalidation is this- to nullify, negate, annul, abrogate- to invalidate means to deprive of effective or continued existence. … Continue reading SOUL BE YOUR PILOT
Whenever things build up to crisis point, people become all important. The power is, I suppose, all in the people. A person or people can often be all it takes to push you to crisis point in the first place, (as just happened) but a person, or in my case the people (in plural) who … Continue reading POST-CRISIS GRATEFUL
You'll find me in my wishing well, once upon a dream Voicing anthems of survivors till my tears dry clean Never will I stop defending those like me No matter how tough it is to urge the blind to wake up and see Maybe they'll NEVER see?- maybe their blindness is a permanent forever But … Continue reading BRAND NEW DAY POEM
This is my chance to big up my readers, yes YOU -the people who read Summer Starts to Shine. I am dead proud to have just nudged over the 800 follower mark. blinks I find this hard to believe actually. Next month I will be celebrating my first blog birthday of shine, and I can hardly believe it! The time … Continue reading THANK YOU!
The truest sentence that I know, is that a smile can conceal great sadness. Speaking from my own experience, I don't only cry when I'm sad and only smile when I'm happy. It just isn't that simple. I have perfected the art of smiling sadness. I suppose you could say it's a semi-conscious process. I have to … Continue reading SMILEY SADNESS
Writing is a way of talking, uninterrupted. The irony is, I typed out those words, then immediately got interrupted LOL! [It was my kids arriving back from swimming with their Grandma] But six HOURS later I'm back, and I'm 'on it'-finally writing this uninterrupted (?) post of un-Buddhist/realistic mindfulness. The truth is, I feel pretty awful today and … Continue reading REALISTIC INBETWEEN
TW* Post written about mental health crisis, with brief references to childhood sexual abuse, suicidality and self-harm. Read with caution if you have personal experience as this may be triggering. The pull excites me-the pull draws me close to the ledge-the pull is what I fear AND crave-the pull is what I am used to-so unlearning what you've learned … Continue reading THE PULL *tw
This is a two parter- The first half is a scribbly description of how I felt earlier on this morning. Part 2 is what I came up with in response to how I was feeling: My summerSHINES Shine Manifesto. I KNOW...I'LL WRITE A MANIFESTO OF SHINE! SOMETHING TO READ TO MYSELF ON MY LESS SHINY DAYS. Hopefully … Continue reading SHARPIE SHINE MANIFESTO
I caught myself longing earlier for a therapy sesh and counting the days till the next one (which turned out to be 7 days). 'Why', I wondered.....'why do I want my therapy to come around and be happening sooner than seven days time'? I pondered this [tearfully] whilst lying for a while with my face crumpled … Continue reading PERMISSION TO FREAK OUT!
I couldn't write my feelings, so I scribbled them out in sharpie instead... 😔 Post-publishing note* I was not intending to break my blog holiday rule, but these sharpies had to be published for my sanity! I'm going to London next month again too faints!!! SummerSHINES©