I suppose I should blog then. I guess I've been avoiding it. I've been very active on social media lately and very occupied with all that jazz, so every day, my blog writing has come last on my list, tucked away as less important- for later, for when I'm fresh, but the trouble is. I … Continue reading SUMMER’S HOUSE
As bloggers we never know who we might reach. A lot of our impact is unknown and invisible. For me, my blog purpose is quite clear...I blog with honesty about what I experience with my mental health in the hope that I am not the only one who experiences these experiences. I blog so people … Continue reading TO BE SEEN
I got spooked. I made my blog private. Two days of wanting to be unseen and unexposed. It isn't often I get nervous about blogging. But honest blogging about my subjective experience of mental illness is like the discomfort of therapy, amplified. In the therapy room chair I want to literally melt into the furniture. … Continue reading SPOOKED
Looks like I'm back! SummerSHINES 😊
My creative inspiration (blogging-wise has dried up). Creativity is not a predictable resource. While some manage to max out creativity and produce creative output prolifically, almost as one of their personality traits, sometimes the well just dries up, the brain cells cease to fire, and the creativity shrivels like a air dried prune [with extra wrinkles]. … Continue reading GOODBYE TO ALL, ESP. YOU x
This is my chance to big up my readers, yes YOU -the people who read Summer Starts to Shine. I am dead proud to have just nudged over the 800 follower mark. blinks I find this hard to believe actually. Next month I will be celebrating my first blog birthday of shine, and I can hardly believe it! The time … Continue reading THANK YOU!
The truest sentence that I know, is that a smile can conceal great sadness. Speaking from my own experience, I don't only cry when I'm sad and only smile when I'm happy. It just isn't that simple. I have perfected the art of smiling sadness. I suppose you could say it's a semi-conscious process. I have to … Continue reading SMILEY SADNESS
Here's a summerSHINES announcement in poetic prose I'm taking a break for a well-deserved doze This blog will have to wait as this mum has demands I only have two eyes, two legs, and one pair of multi-task hands The kiddies need me for six summer weeks They need my love and some well-earned pick … Continue reading ‘HAPPY HOLIDAY’ BLOG BREAK
Blogging has taken a back seat this week, and in many ways, so have I. What I am trying to do is relentlessly carve out a pathway forward and stride on with purpose and conviction. I imagine myself as a sassy volunteer princess beating my way though the thickets desperate to catch a glimpse of the fairytale … Continue reading SLEEPY ON MARGARITA
Apprehension is something we all feel from time to time and is completely natural and human. Usually though we are only apprehensive about stuff that really matters to us. Things that we're not bothered about we don't tend to feel apprehension about. Instead we feel the murkiness and greyness of nothing; indifference basically. Nothing that is … Continue reading LIVING, WRITING, FEARING
I have put off writing this blog post. It isn't really like me to procrastinate over anything actually so it is always strange when this type of situation arises. If I avoid writing about something it can be for a variety of reasons....sometimes it's because the topic is plain painful, sometimes it's that I'm too ashamed … Continue reading IS A CAREER POSSIBLE IF I BLOG?
I have two choices with this blog. I either delete the whole thing, or I push on. I contemplated deleting my whole blog earlier. I honestly did. I have done quite a few times lately actually. Why? Because blogging is exposing. I also considered entering this blog for an award, but I just felt too … Continue reading EMBARRASSING IS OK
Message from a friend sent just now... "I wish for you to see yourself thru my eyes, so you can see you are beautiful and your energy brilliant." After thanking her and feeling touched and uplifted and boosted, I replied that I'd blog about this, inspired by what she said." Which eyes do YOU see yourself through? Which … Continue reading EYES ON ME
BACKFLIPS are the thing of talent show dance troopes....the visual motions that make the crowd get excited. When applied to mental health recovery, backflips are what I like to call what other people term 'relapse episodes', to make them seem a little less shit than mental health relapse episodes really are. It should come as … Continue reading BACKFLIP
Today is a part-sharpie/part-prose post. Today is therapy day, which means I [very predictably] have a thumping headache and feel absolutely drained. Today was really hard, really really hard, and really really emotional and really really intense. There are not enough 'reallys' to do it justice. The only true achievement of the day that I … Continue reading THERAPY BONKERS