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SUMMER STARTS TO SHINE

WRITER. DOODLER. TRAUMA SURVIVOR. INFLUENCER. WAVE-MAKER.

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emotionally unstable personality disorder

SMILEY SADNESS

The truest sentence that I know, is that a smile can conceal great sadness. Speaking from my own experience, I don't only cry when I'm sad and only smile when I'm happy. It just isn't that simple. I have perfected the art... Continue Reading →

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**TW. LUCKY

Here is an extract from an email I just wrote to my psychologist. I often email her for therapeutic purposes. Whilst it's against her therapeutic boundaries to reply, she's happy for me to continue to write as she knows writing helps... Continue Reading →

WHAT IS MAD & AM I IT?

Am I mad? And what is madness anyway? How do you define yourself? Do you fit into the category of 'mad'? What does madness mean to you? Does that determine whether or not you are mad? 'Mad' is a word that is has... Continue Reading →

SHADES OF ILL

I woke this morning heavy hearted, and I've already idled away some unknown mindless length of time pondering why it is I feel so crap today. I think I've finally now worked it out. I'm not sure if I'm ill... Continue Reading →

LONELINESS: THE QUIETEST EXPOSION

Loneliness is the quietest explosion you'll ever [not] hear It explodes peacefully in never-ending waves; breaking against the shoreline of our hearts There is no sound of exploding on the outside The sound is all on the inside We are alone and... Continue Reading →

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BPD: ESCAPE TO THE RAINBOW

The grounding process begins. I'm digging deep and securing my emotional roots again. Today has been blissfully easy and private. I have happily hidden, barring a few conversations with selected people of lushness. I needed that after two very special but also... Continue Reading →

UNICORN sparkle *

I'm high. I'm low. I'm fast. I'm slow. I soar, then I'm grounded and stuck fast. Free as a bird, until the cage door clinks shut. Sociable butterfly meets reclusive hermit. Introvert who can extrovert like the best of them on red... Continue Reading →

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COMFORT WHEN DISTURBED

One of the biggest insults that can be colloquially hurled at someone in conversation; sometimes as a unfunny joke, and sometimes with rancid bitterness is, "you're psychologically disturbed!"- usually meaning broadly that you are 'crazy', 'off your rocker', 'unbalanced', 'abnormal', 'socially bonkers',... Continue Reading →

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WATER ON CHALK

Gymnasts can't do those amazing things they do on the bars without chalk on their hands. Their hands will slip. They will lose their grip. They may even fall to the ground and do themselves an injury. Gymnasts are not... Continue Reading →

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MEANDER TO NARNIA 

A brief meander through my thoughts....... Heavy fur coats in a wooden wardrobe part left, right and above, and I'm met with the chilly air of Narnia inhaled up my shocked nostrils. I need mind clearing via writing. The run today... Continue Reading →

CRISIS THOUGHTS

SummerSHINES

HARM MYSELF. STAY ALIVE.

**TRIGGER WARNING-SUICIDAL THEMES   Life is considerably better when you're not obsessed with desires to stop being alive anymore. That is the change yesterday brought about. For the first time in 7 days I didn't have an intense desire to... Continue Reading →

FUNDRAISING FOR MY MIND

I am aware of mental health. There is no more aware of it I personally need to get myself. I blog about it daily. However I volunteer for my local mental health charity to raise awareness and destigmatise mental health disorders for... Continue Reading →

CRISIS DOODLING

No explanation.. just drew how I feel.... SummerSHINES 

LOSS(T).

I do know how to spell 'loss', honest. Loss is a description of an abstract state of psychological being. 'Lost', by contrast is the post-mortem adjective; how you describe yourself after the feeling of loss has registered within you and you are wrestling with how the... Continue Reading →

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