Finally, I can breathe. The house sighs with relief, just as I do. There is quiet. There is calm. There is me, just me, and the keys. There are notebooks and neat piles of paper in organised rows that prove my recent productiveness. Finally I can come up for air, and tell you what life … Continue reading HUMAN AFTERALL
This is a blog, in the style of how I know I need to speak to myself in order to feel better. Inner talk can be useful and stimulate positive progress, or it can be the spade that we use to dig ourselves deeper into our melancholic moods. This is what my positive self talk … Continue reading STRENGTHENING
Hopefully you have already read my previous post...(my reflections on the build up to the ceremony). Well this is the meaty post; the one where I share what actually happened. As I said...although I'm a media volunteer for Mind charity, this is me writing my unofficial take on it, in the guise and capacity as … Continue reading MIND MEDIA AWARDS #2
I have little time to fully share how I feel today because I'm too busy and FAR too excited to form words or accurately put my feelings into words to any great extent. I am busy getting ready for the Mind Media Award ceremony down in the big smoke of London town :) Even though … Continue reading RIGHT…SO I’M NOT USELESS?
Oh my f*****g god. I literally can't believe the mood swings I've had, and all within the last few hours.....I have only recently stopped crying and that's only because I had to get my act together enough to collect my latest prescription. I'm an emotional WRECK today, and it isn't only due to the monster … Continue reading WHY I’M GLAD I RODE OUT [ANOTHER] CRISIS
Words found, can be immensely powerful. There has been too much [mental] illness snaking a path of destruction through my life of late. But I am learning how to speak again, and more importantly, to write. Writing is where I get my power from. It's where I tap into the essence of me and share … Continue reading THE WORD FINDER- for MH bloggers.
Good morning! I have lots of good stuff to publish today...and I am actually in a half decent mood, (which considering my recent mental health crisis is pretty epic!) I did some sharpie doodling this morning whilst chatting on and off to lovely humans (via the online social beauty that is Facebook messenger). I sent … Continue reading #4 of 20. BREAKTHROUGH!
Has anyone seen real life? I think I must have mislaid it down the back of the sofa or something, because I can't for the life of me locate real life. Real life has become unreal chaos. I am busy. Not at all centred. Floaty. Overwhelmed. Confused. I haven't been normal since Wednesday, or maybe, if … Continue reading REAL LIFE?
Everyone has heard of PTSD. But not everyone had heard of PTSS (most probably because I literally just made it up!). On my email signature I describe myself as a 'mental health blogger of post-traumatic sparkle' @summerstartstoshine etc, and ''PTSS' is the new phenomenon that I totally just made up, which is essentially a fancier and sparklier way … Continue reading Post-Traumatic SPARKLE
Apprehension is something we all feel from time to time and is completely natural and human. Usually though we are only apprehensive about stuff that really matters to us. Things that we're not bothered about we don't tend to feel apprehension about. Instead we feel the murkiness and greyness of nothing; indifference basically. Nothing that is … Continue reading LIVING, WRITING, FEARING
I have put off writing this blog post. It isn't really like me to procrastinate over anything actually so it is always strange when this type of situation arises. If I avoid writing about something it can be for a variety of reasons....sometimes it's because the topic is plain painful, sometimes it's that I'm too ashamed … Continue reading IS A CAREER POSSIBLE IF I BLOG?
I'm feeling proud today, and totes emotes. I think today is ripe for a mental health blogger's review, as it is already over half way through this year and I wanted to have a review of where I'm up to in relation to the goals I set myself. This year my goals were real ones, … Continue reading 2017 YEAR OF SHINE. PROGRESS UPDATE
I smashed it today on my 10k mental health charity run for Tyneside and Northumberland Mind 🙌 A new personal best of 1 hr and 3 minutes! I pushed myself to my absolute physical limits and I couldn't be prouder! 💛💛💛 Will write more tomorrow...need a snooze now!! 😪 Will leave you with some doodles … Continue reading SMASH
Morning coffee crumpled duvet View in front just like a movie Rustic beams farmhouse walls Sunken valley swallows call Clothes laid over whicker chair Mirror leaning vacant stare Nothingness here on holiday Nothing much to do or say "Enjoy this empty" husband says Won't be long till airport day Relish simple relish France Do a … Continue reading MY BAD
I keep it simple in many ways. Despite the complexity of my analytical intellectual mind, I live in a unusually simple way in my daily lifestyle. I don't just photograph my food for Instagram. Call me simple but I prefer to eat it. By the time you've finished arranging your food so it looks pristine … Continue reading CALL ME SIMPLE