I can't tell you how amazing it feels to be tapping on the keys once more. Without writing, I cease to be a writer; and when I am not a writer, I cease to be fully alive. Writing is my passion. This is where I tap into my flow. This is where my psyche unknots … Continue reading BECAUSE IT’S CHRISTMAS
Chest ache, can't fake; stuck here, damn straight Fall down, then clamber up; contents splash out from my heart's overflowing cup Drama karma; bleeds into heart-clutching rapid sinking Buddhist dharma Remember that day when tears streamed out? when my survival was still so much in doubt Haven't moved on, realise that now; in my dreams … Continue reading POEM: DRAMA KARMA
Eye lids heavy, downward gaze, Blue is the colour of this depressive haze. Heavy & leaden, bitter & sour, Consumed with a longing for my final hour. Tears salty; in slow rolls they drip their way down my face, There's a life UP FOR RENT in this empty head space. Poetry is beauty, but believe … Continue reading HIDDEN BLUE
Today I asked my therapist...."can I write on that white board?"....I have published a quick snapshot of the result. **TW I won't explain it- my head hurts too much- so you'll have to come to your own conclusions. This is mental illness, in the raw. It hurts. I'm really feeling the illness today. summerSHINES©
This is a post, written stream-of-consciousness, about a dark topic. My intention is not to provoke or upset anyone…..merely to give an honest and unfiltered insight into the mind of someone like me. By someone like me, I mean, someone who battles chronically (in the longer-term) against familiar impulses to end my life. Suicide must … Continue reading ALL STUPID LIES *tw
I always write stream of consciousness style, I write as I think; but tonight's post will be even more streamy and consciousy as I don't have the intellectual capacity to mentally plan anything. As for what is the point of this post, who knows?!...I don't, but there doesn't always have to be a point I … Continue reading SPLURGING
*TW- brief mention of mental health crisis and self-injury. I'm staring, eyes half focused at a notebook crammed of inspirational quotes. (A lush find from one of my top stationary shops, Paperchase). 'Never stop dreaming' is the title. The key design feature on the cover is the depiction of a neon flamingo. Any regular … Continue reading FLAMINGO IN NEON *tw
Watch this video please....guys, girls, and especially parents of boys....(or if you are anyone who knows a guy, which is basically EVERYONE)......It's powerful. https://www.facebook.com/LADbible/videos/2959948387385665/ I am passionately supportive of this video that someone at LADbible thoughtfully created. When I watched it I thought YES YES YES. It was very Harry met Sally, but in an … Continue reading “MAN UP??” NO, SHUT UP!
Words found, can be immensely powerful. There has been too much [mental] illness snaking a path of destruction through my life of late. But I am learning how to speak again, and more importantly, to write. Writing is where I get my power from. It's where I tap into the essence of me and share … Continue reading THE WORD FINDER- for MH bloggers.
Progress...a day later....(in sharpie- words are still difficult) x SummerSHINES
MENTAL HEALTH CAMPAIGN LAUNCH POST!!! For those of you who are unaware, as well as being a blogger I am also a mental health campaigner and media volunteer for national Mind (the leading UK mental health charity), and a fundraising volunteer for my local Mind in the North East of England. Local Mind charities are … Continue reading #MY SELF CARE SELFIE
Hello peeps of the world. Today is October 10th- WORLD mental health day. The world is a BIG place with many humans in it, and many of those humans (probably far more I'd suspect than the usually cited 1 in 4) will have lived experience of mental ill health, ergo, they have experience, because they … Continue reading MENTAL HEALTH (OF THE ENTIRE WORLD etc)
What I sent to my therapist just now....I'm publishing it, because when I email my therapist I feel more comfortable expressing my vulnerability than I seem to on my blog. With her I can lay it all out. It's a release. I found this because it helps me in the moment. Also this is my … Continue reading INTO THE BLUE
Good morning! I have lots of good stuff to publish today...and I am actually in a half decent mood, (which considering my recent mental health crisis is pretty epic!) I did some sharpie doodling this morning whilst chatting on and off to lovely humans (via the online social beauty that is Facebook messenger). I sent … Continue reading #4 of 20. BREAKTHROUGH!
At last. A happy blog topic!! party poppers This post is a lot more about footwear than mental health, although don't worry, this blog hasn't morphed into a vacuous fashionista blog- the mental health link is still very much there. For a welcome change, this post empathises some of the good stuff only good stuff that mental illness … Continue reading PEACEFUL SOLE