This is a post about my diagnosed personality disorder and me. Often people are criticised for their own self-diagnosis of supposed mental health conditions. Society argues that people will sometimes say they have self-diagnosed depression (to excuse them from being a miserable cow), or anxiety (when they want to avoid doing something), like when people … Continue reading PD? NO, JUST ME
TW** upsetting themes about loss, death, cancer, suicide, and abuse and estrangement from parents. I read a blog just earlier by a lovely blogger friend who is really close to my heart. We are completely different characters, but united. For whatever reason, we click. There was a line in her blog which leapt off … Continue reading ALL ABOUT MUM *tw
No time to blog today...just enjoying the creativity of sharpie scribbling. Drew myself some rewards after a challenging but rewarding day :) SummerSHINES Xx
Wow. What a day.......it started early. 7.30am. Get up. Breakfast. Radio. Washing up (left half done). School run...........BOOM> I smashed it. Friend.....she is there waiting for me parked up outside the house. She knew I needed help. (I put out a Facebook SOS last night). She was there, and fortunately for me, she stayed there. … Continue reading FRIENDS
I always write stream of consciousness style, I write as I think; but tonight's post will be even more streamy and consciousy as I don't have the intellectual capacity to mentally plan anything. As for what is the point of this post, who knows?!...I don't, but there doesn't always have to be a point I … Continue reading SPLURGING
Watch this video please....guys, girls, and especially parents of boys....(or if you are anyone who knows a guy, which is basically EVERYONE)......It's powerful. https://www.facebook.com/LADbible/videos/2959948387385665/ I am passionately supportive of this video that someone at LADbible thoughtfully created. When I watched it I thought YES YES YES. It was very Harry met Sally, but in an … Continue reading “MAN UP??” NO, SHUT UP!
I asked the kids for ten minutes peace. I also grabbed half a Valium from the cupboard to cement the relaxation potential I was searching for. I have felt anxiety and rising panic this morning while indulging in the mundane chore of cleaning the bathrooms. Everything got cleaned to within an inch of it's life … Continue reading WHEN YOUR ABUSER WRITES…
Hello peeps of the world. Today is October 10th- WORLD mental health day. The world is a BIG place with many humans in it, and many of those humans (probably far more I'd suspect than the usually cited 1 in 4) will have lived experience of mental ill health, ergo, they have experience, because they … Continue reading MENTAL HEALTH (OF THE ENTIRE WORLD etc)
I wish you could be exactly the person I wanted. I wish you could be here right now. I wish you could comb your fingers gently through my hair, and tease out the tangled mess in my brain and heart too whilst you're at it. I wish you could be here beside me, but not … Continue reading I WISH YOU COULD…
Who knows what invalidation means? This isn't a SAT test. I am just not sure how aware people are of the term invalidation and what implication it has in relationships and potential conflict scenarios. The dictionary definition of invalidation is this- to nullify, negate, annul, abrogate- to invalidate means to deprive of effective or continued existence. … Continue reading SOUL BE YOUR PILOT
Whenever things build up to crisis point, people become all important. The power is, I suppose, all in the people. A person or people can often be all it takes to push you to crisis point in the first place, (as just happened) but a person, or in my case the people (in plural) who … Continue reading POST-CRISIS GRATEFUL
I woke this morning heavy hearted, and I've already idled away some unknown mindless length of time pondering why it is I feel so crap today. I think I've finally now worked it out. I'm not sure if I'm ill or well (mentally/psychologically) and I'm trying to work out which of the two things I … Continue reading SHADES OF ILL
One of the biggest insults that can be colloquially hurled at someone in conversation; sometimes as a unfunny joke, and sometimes with rancid bitterness is, "you're psychologically disturbed!"- usually meaning broadly that you are 'crazy', 'off your rocker', 'unbalanced', 'abnormal', 'socially bonkers', 'deviant' 'manipulative', or other such derogatory & stigma-loaded assumptions. "YOU ARE PSYCHOLOGICALLY DISTURBED". I have … Continue reading COMFORT WHEN DISTURBED
Message from a friend sent just now... "I wish for you to see yourself thru my eyes, so you can see you are beautiful and your energy brilliant." After thanking her and feeling touched and uplifted and boosted, I replied that I'd blog about this, inspired by what she said." Which eyes do YOU see yourself through? Which … Continue reading EYES ON ME
Phewzers (Wow and Phew and zers combined). I'm finally feeling okay again :) Today has been a GOOD day. It started off with a tinge of mood wobbliness, but the day has gone from strength to strength and I have managed to upright my posture once again to the survivor badass I once was. I … Continue reading FOREVER FRIENDS?