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SUMMER STARTS TO SHINE

WRITER. DOODLER. TRAUMA SURVIVOR. INFLUENCER. WAVE-MAKER.

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suicide

A RIGHT BOBBY DAZZLER *TW

TW- Post openly discusses themes of suicidality and self-harm. Only read if you feel appropriately strong to manage your feelings about this. For the benefit of my international followers- in England we say "a right bobby dazzler" when something has... Continue Reading →

**TW. LUCKY

Here is an extract from an email I just wrote to my psychologist. I often email her for therapeutic purposes. Whilst it's against her therapeutic boundaries to reply, she's happy for me to continue to write as she knows writing helps... Continue Reading →

LONELINESS: THE QUIETEST EXPOSION

Loneliness is the quietest explosion you'll ever [not] hear It explodes peacefully in never-ending waves; breaking against the shoreline of our hearts There is no sound of exploding on the outside The sound is all on the inside We are alone and... Continue Reading →

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WHEN YOU ARE THE DARKNESS

What to do when you are the darkness?  Do you rid the world of your darkness..... By removing yourself? Separation of the bond between person and the glue of society. Stickiness un-peeled. Strings in the orchestra reveal the emotion of... Continue Reading →

CRISIS THOUGHTS

SummerSHINES

HARM MYSELF. STAY ALIVE.

**TRIGGER WARNING-SUICIDAL THEMES   Life is considerably better when you're not obsessed with desires to stop being alive anymore. That is the change yesterday brought about. For the first time in 7 days I didn't have an intense desire to... Continue Reading →

CONTROLLED EXPLOSION (?)

*TRIGGER WARNING- SUICIDAL THEMES Dare I even write about it? Fuck it. "Write hard and clear about what hurts." Ernest Hemingway. I am magnetised and attracted to chaos. I live and breathe it. The ups and downs are relentless. There... Continue Reading →

CRISIS DOODLING

No explanation.. just drew how I feel.... SummerSHINES 

MY BAD

Morning coffee crumpled duvet View in front just like a movie Rustic beams farmhouse walls Sunken valley swallows call  Clothes laid over whicker chair Mirror leaning vacant stare Nothingness here on holiday  Nothing much to do or say "Enjoy this... Continue Reading →

DOUBLE-BOLTED

It is early June 2015. I am almost 34. I have written my note to my husband (which I still have in my crisis keepsake box) and I am leaving my usual acute ward, en route to a city ward.... Continue Reading →

HighLIGHTS

Another blank screen with more stuff for me to throw at it. I'm not sure how I feel...hopefully writing will illuminate me. (Unless white noise is the thing I'm feeling. I'm not quite sure yet.) I'm sat enjoying a beautiful... Continue Reading →

THE LINES

This blog is about life with mental health, and the process of having therapy for PTSD and a personality disorder. The lines in the post title are many things: The lines are the local railway track that I used to... Continue Reading →

LIE LOW

A bluntly written piece on suicidal/self-harm ideation. TW. Please take care if you're feeling particularly vulnerable yourself as you may find this distressing and triggering. I'm not in a good place today despite lots of good things happening and people being... Continue Reading →

THESE DUVET DAYS

My spine slumps, my shoulders sag, my neck aches, my arms are perceived by me as feeling far longer, as though they are weighted down like depression's leaden version of mittens on the end of strings that dangle down the innards of... Continue Reading →

HALL OF FAME #2

This is my second post sharing [*read-boasting] about my first article for a genuine human journalist :) I was sent these questions by the journo to form the answers for my published patient file on my mental health conditions. The article was published... Continue Reading →

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